Sunday, September 6, 2009

Thank you for everything and for nothing

I feel as if I am making all the effort to get you to see me and yet I remain invisible. I am speaking out, I am pressing urgently against the mirror, barking, screaming, wagging my tail. I am voicing my frustration, I am thrusting honesty as my mace.... I am "communicating," communicating. But you can't hear me. You don't hear me. You don't want to. And my skin is replaced with this bitterness, an acid... And acidic bitterness that you can no longer touch. You have created it an you have controlled it to its completion. Thank you for everything and for nothing. I am not combustible (as you have hoped) but, I am steaming. I find you inaccessible and avoiding and my resulting bitterness makes me a match for you.